TS10: Falling

Tomme Suab was officially launched in 2013, but 2012 was an important year in it’s development. During 2012, I was engaging with local and indie music for the first time and it was like a personal renaissance for me. I was discovering new-to-me music left and right by attending local events like Volume One’s Sounds Like Summer and through NoiseTrade. If you’re not familiar with NoiseTrade, it’s a site where you can download music for free, legally, from a multitude of artists. During 2012, I dove into NoiseTrade and began discovering a variety of musicians for the first time. One of the bands I first heard on NoiseTrade was The Civil Wars.

The star-crossed duo of John Paul White and Joy Williams were in their heyday in 2012, winning a variety of awards with their debut album, Barton Hollow. I was immediately captivated by their sound. I’m sure the “southern-ness” of it was part of the reason. I also loved the blend of their two very distinct voices. But there was something else at work in their music that grabbed a hold of me.

The record I downloaded from The Civil Wars was a live album and at the start of the show, John Paul White told the crowd, “If you’re not sad yet, you’re gonna be.” That sadness, that deep, deep melancholy pervading their music was, for some reason, resonating with a deep sadness living in me. It was that sorrow that drew me to their music in the first place, and it was the sorrow that helped me process some of my own sorrow during that time.

2012 was a pivotal year for me. As I was engaging in the sadness of The Civil Wars’ music, I was simultaneously dealing with some very difficult relational struggles. I was going through a period in which I realized some relationships which had always been central to me were changing. I was seeing, for the first time, how dysfunctional and toxic these relationships really were. Their song Falling especially spoke to me.

I’m glad to share that song with you on this week’s TS10, along with nine other potentially emotive tracks. Falling has been a part of my healing process, maybe one or more of these songs can be part of yours.