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TS10: Falling

Tomme Suab was officially launched in 2013, but 2012 was an important year in it’s development. During 2012, I was engaging with local and indie music for the first time and it was like a personal renaissance for me. I was discovering new-to-me music left and right by attending local events like Volume One’s Sounds Like Summer and through NoiseTrade. If you’re not familiar with NoiseTrade, it’s a site where you can download music for free, legally, from a multitude of artists. During 2012, I dove into NoiseTrade and began discovering a variety of musicians for the first time. One of the bands I first heard on NoiseTrade was The Civil Wars.

The star-crossed duo of John Paul White and Joy Williams were in their heyday in 2012, winning a variety of awards with their debut album, Barton Hollow. I was immediately captivated by their sound. I’m sure the “southern-ness” of it was part of the reason. I also loved the blend of their two very distinct voices. But there was something else at work in their music that grabbed a hold of me.

The record I downloaded from The Civil Wars was a live album and at the start of the show, John Paul White told the crowd, “If you’re not sad yet, you’re gonna be.” That sadness, that deep, deep melancholy pervading their music was, for some reason, resonating with a deep sadness living in me. It was that sorrow that drew me to their music in the first place, and it was the sorrow that helped me process some of my own sorrow during that time.

2012 was a pivotal year for me. As I was engaging in the sadness of The Civil Wars’ music, I was simultaneously dealing with some very difficult relational struggles. I was going through a period in which I realized some relationships which had always been central to me were changing. I was seeing, for the first time, how dysfunctional and toxic these relationships really were. Their song Falling especially spoke to me.

I’m glad to share that song with you on this week’s TS10, along with nine other potentially emotive tracks. Falling has been a part of my healing process, maybe one or more of these songs can be part of yours.

-Ed

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TS10: Not That Great

This week’s playlist is named after the LASKA song included here by the same title. The song makes me smile, because I can relate to some of the sentiment in it.

Look at me and know, that I am not that great.

You love me because you’re blind to my mistakes.

While these words seem to speak to a deep-seated insecurity, they also speak to a truth. We’re all messed up. We are just “not that great.” And it’s okay, especially when we all embrace our “not that great-ness”.

It’s those broken pieces in us, the parts that make us not so great, that remind us of how much we need help, how much we need healing. In some small way, I hope this week’s TS10 leads you and me toward a new level of wholeness and peace, even though we’re “not that great.”

-Ed

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TS10: Seeking Emotional Intelligence

Ahhhhh… so, this playlist is a little more balanced than what I want to share right now. Why, you may ask? Well, I’m angry at the moment. When I’m angry, it’s very difficult for me to be balanced in my approach to anything. I had a moment, a fleeting moment, in which I thought, “To hell with what I have planned! I’m gonna find some angry music for this week’s TS10. And then I remembered that I am an adult, not a child.

Children react impulsively when it comes to emotional stimuli. Part of our maturation process is learning to pause before reacting or responding, to let ourselves feel things without those feelings getting in the way of actual decision-making. I’ll readily admit, I am an amateur when it comes to such. I wish that wasn’t the case, but the truth is, every once in a while, I put on my “eight year old Ed” pants and react, when I should sit still.

For what it’s worth, I’ll take this instance with this week’s playlist as a little victory. While, in the heat of the moment I want to lash out in some way (even if it’s just in sharing ten angry songs), I’m glad the proverbial cooler head prevailed, because this playlist has some wonderful stuff in it.

No matter what you’re feeling at the moment, I invite you to engage with what’s here and let your emotions take you where you need to go.

-Ed

 

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